Trusting You

I like mornings like these -- I think! :] See, it's my one and only morning I have off during the week -- so in a sense Wednesday mornings are always my time to catch my breath [and my sleep] in this last crazy college semester I am in. So it's all good. Normally Wednesday mornings I do my online elective. But this morning, the homework is not posted yet - so no elective for me to do. What I'm saying is -- the reason this is such a good morning is because it's been one of those "chill" type of mornings. Sure, I've been studying for my Pharmacology exam, and doing research on a  Diabetes assignment, but it's still just been a slow day. And I'll take those type of days every chance I get !! :] I won't think about these next few days, when I have to cram and catch up -- cause for right now, all is good.

And so, since it's a "chill" morning -- I thought a blog update would be nice. So here goes :] Lately I've been challenged with the word "trust." Over the past few years of my life -- I feel I've taken that word to a whole new meaning -- trusting God with every area of my life - my schooling, decisions, questions, my future and so much more. But in these past few days -- that word has once again been on my mind. And today, I was bored, so I was playing the piano and singing. I sang a song that we sing as a family all the time "Trusting You, Lord." As I was singing those words, they really hit me in a new way. 

What is it like to really trust God? Sometimes it seems so much easier to do things your way! And I find myself often struggling with that, wanting it my way, wanting answers now, and not trusting God in the way I should. And so the words of that song really hit home, because they are what I often feel: 

Trusting You

Here I am before You Lord, Falling at Your feet,

My longing is to know You more, Your purpose to complete.

When I look around me, It's so hard to understand,

I want to see you move, Lord, I want to see Your hand.

Trusting You Lord, Does not come easily to me.

Trusting You Lord I need Your eyes that I may see.

When the way is dark, and I'm afraid, And don't know what to do,

Help me take my eyes of me Lord, and keep my eyes on You.

I stand upon Your promise Lord, You have a plan for me,

And though I may not see it yet, I'll trust You faithfully.

You have spoken to my heart, a message strong and true,

So I'll gather up my courage Lord, and humbly follow You. 

Those words spoke to me today in a huge way! My greatest longing and desire is to trust God, even when the way is dark, and I'm afraid, even when I want to see Him move now. I want to gather up all the courage I have, and humbly follow God - taking my eyes off myself -- and trusting Him all the way!